oh gosh i just woke up.hahaha.
sent my maid to the airport this morning.it's quite sad,the way everything ended for her.there isn't anything that is forever in this world,except for God's love and our salvation.
what's the point of getting married and having children if you don't wanna take care of them.it defeats the purpose of the thing called commitment.i was at the airport in the morning,and i saw so many families togther,kissing and hugging,and my heart broke for my maid.everything must be falling apart for her,yet she has to be strong and put up a front in the face of her children.she was so glad for the little blessings that came her way,like the man who shared the weight of her luggage with her and the upgrade to business class.
it makes me feel like i'm concentrating too much on the smaller things,and not looking at the big picture.it's contradictory but true how much we miss when we hyperfocus on the small issues,and miss both the big blessings and the small blessings in life that we have.i miss walking home,ears plugged and feeling just blessed for the little miracles that God has given me.i don't need to feel confused and worried over what's going to happen in the future because what will happen will happen.so mugalot!it's not about being proactive or not.it's about trusting God to place what belongs in your life there.
whatever happens between us happens.i'm not going to force it i'm not going to worry about anything.i'm not prepared to chase something only to end up with nothing,not because i'm scared of losing out.but just because i don't see meaning in it anymore.
ze me qu yong you yi dao cai hongze me qu yong bao yi xia tian de fengtian shang de xin xin xiao di shang de renzong shi bu neng gou bu neng jue de zu gou.playing;mayday:zi zu.
